i feel like this is my first real mothers day.
last year we had 8 week old twins and the notion of seizing the moment and appreciating what this day means was no where in sight. reality was no where in sight.
this year, i get it.
i know how it feels to have the two biggest beating pieces of my heart walking around outside of my body.
i watch you both in awe not believing i made you.
my favorite part of our day is when you wake up. you both crawl on my lap, drink your milk and we watch sesame street.
during this time, i make a conscious effort to be present. to hug you both. and to literally feel my love for you pour out of my body and into yours. at that moment i think yup, this is what it's supposed to feel like.
if you both wake up every morning and go to sleep every night knowing that i loved you every second of the day then i will feel like i've done my job.
and to the little girl in my belly, as much as i can't wait to meet you, know that i am loving this time when you are trapped in my belly and you are all mine.
and to my mamma.....
thank you for guiding me and teaching me so many invaluable lessons.
thank you for teaching me to cook, craft, bake and for fostering my creativity.
thank you for decorating for every holiday making our house feel magical.
thank you for answering the phone in the middle of the night to help me realize my self diagnosed terminal illness is by no means not terminal at all. phewww.
thanks for kissing me back to health and happiness.
and most of all
thank you for constantly telling me how much you love me.
thank you to my stepmom for coming in to our lives as we were monsters (my words, not hers) and loving us still.
and to my sweet husband, you are a gem. thank you for making me the mamma to the most amazing children on this planet. for me, being a mother will be my greatest legacy. the best thing i will have ever done. thank you for doing such an amazing job walking by my side. you are my best friend and i love watching you as a father.