yesterday

yesterday was rough, bro.
i cried.
these twins won.
they often do.

we didn't make it out of our pj's.
i say that like it's is an uncommon thing.
it's not but we do try to put clothes on when we leave the house.
not yesterday.

my baby boy is sick. he sounds like a purring cat when i hold him.
and chloe?
well chloe has decided that she is terrified of her brother.
it's sad i tell you.
he loves her so much and attacks her with love and kisses
and she doesn't realize he is attacking her out of love.
well, sometimes.
sometimes he's just attacking her.
he always wakes up about an hour earlier than she does and he is constantly looking for her.
it's so presh.
and when she wakes up and I walk out with her he just freezes and smiles a smile that makes my
heart swell.
she kind of rolls her eyes and says great, here we go again.
i put her down and
BAM
he's all up on her like white on rice.
poor thing.
i hope she comes around.

yesterday after he smothered her for the 462nd time
and she screamed like the world had ended.
this mamma was done.
we hoped in the car.
they're quiet there.

we got to publix
put the car in park.
and i was just enjoyed the peace.
we stayed there for
almosttwohours.
i watched a baker leave for lunch......and come back.
i watched a guy corral carts about 14 times.
they eventually fell asleep.
i didn't care.
sitting in the quiet car was so much better than what was going down at home.

don't let this edible little thing fool you.
she puts on her happy face in front of people so they don't believe me.

days like yesterday are so hard to deal with.
for me at least.

one thing i feared i would struggle with before having these babies was patience.
it has never been a virtue i have possessed.
matty says it is like night and day watching me with the kids versus the new pair of shoes i need NOW.
i have to agree.
but yesterday, my patience wore thin.
it was boderline dangerous thin and daddy got home just in time.
right before I cracked.

he must have known i wasn't playin'.

he got home just in time for me to have a lil time out so i could regroup and love all over those lil twinnies right before bed.
all was forgiven and forgotten on both sides.

here's hoping to a better today.

although this is how we are starting out sooooooo............

how does that even happen?